PUSHER?~?

firstly i wanna say... i dint push...

secondly, i'm not a pusher...

thirdly, i'm not the one who has changed..

there is no one who changed, changes, or have been changing...
no one... its because now the environment for us both have changed...
its not me... its not also u...
there is no one...
why i say like this... its because there is an misunderstanding between us...
i dint say u wrong or i dint mean anything u are wrong...
see be...

the case of the pictures.... its me who took the pictures... i was bad,its my fault... and i tot v adi mention on this case d? hmm... but u were jealous... i just finally understand why u will jealous after last two days of argument... i dint know that the picture case means so bad to u... i understand hw u feel only after the argument... but u must tell me... we calmly sit down... then tell me... not angrily send me the message and scold me... then when the picture taking happens the 2nd time between me and pit yee... u know its my college mate... what could she do to me?? all sorts? hmm... and she posted on9... its with her blackberry... its long time really dint see each other since she was bek from ipoh and australia... so mai meet with her lo... the reason we took pics is because i have her old pics in my phone for so long... i just shown her the pics me and her only... then she say we take again to see any differences mou... then mai see lo... she say much have changed... then she posted... (i'm not making up stories... i just dun know hw to explain in the sms... its adi so long)

haiz... ai yo... u also told me... if i know its ur college mate.. i sure wont care de.... i wont be jealous that much because i know its from our college de... she is lo... my college fren... from so long... be4 i know u.... and if sumthing were to happen between me and her... omg... i wouldnt have u lo... but i dint ma... rite?? what could she do? fall in love with me? she wont de la... she wouldnt love my this kind... i know... why i know? because i know her type of boys d la... other girls i not so sure... thats why i dun have other pics... except like what u hated... (belle's pic and "baby" lo..) i really dint know anything lo...

for this "baby" thingy... i dint know at all.. if u could recall, i couldnt have the internet line like today that i've just repaid... hope to chat with u all night....
i cant see any "baby" word also lo... be, trust me la... i really dint know for this case... what u want me to do? scold her for putting "baby"?

be.. what was i trying to say was, u adi deleted my pics from ur fb d... we stated as singles d... if sum1 wrote this to me... (although i dint know.. but if i know also...) we r considered as singles ma... sum1 write to me or u... also they dint know.. u cant blame them also.. they see us as singles... i dint delete a single pic because i din wish too... but i dint know... what u mean as no turning bek... is u to forget everything about me... (we dint communicate 4that period of time... if u do like this... i'll sure think of this... same for u... if i told u no turning bek... and i deleted all ur pics... from top to toe... what will u assume? )

and also... this is not to say who's fault... in people's eyes... we are singles d... thats why i called us to be bek together... its because when we are at the eyes of people that we are singles... we would have these matters... over and over and over... then kept argue and argue... its not we changed... or i changed... or u changed... its our status has changed... thats why we are arguing like this...

and now, if i kept i saying i dint know.. u sure say.. i always i dint know la... i this la.. i that la... end up... quarreling like this again... but its true... many things we dint know is because we are not side to side... kept arguing like this has no meaning... i know my temper has to control... but this time... i'm calmly explaining what has happened...

the case of ur b'day... i know tat day was ur b'day... i know its my fault not to sms u.. neva wish u... neva wish u on the 7th too... the biggest fault is me k? i dint meant to have a credit failure and phone no battery as well... i dint mean to have this problem to happen also... i know its my fault... i know its my bad... i know its past... i know it wont happen a 22nd year old for u again... but i'm trying my best to make sure i dun forget it again... i wont forget to bring charger to charge if no battery.... i wont forget again to reload everytime near ur b'day k?? this one i'm sorry and i can promise u is because i wouldnt make ur b'day that bad ever again... and i tot there was a celebration between us for ur b'day? we could make a belated de ma... this sunday perhaps??

forgive me la be... misunderstanding happens... although we not side to side... we also can make this happen de... i'm sorry k? i'm no pusher... i dint push any fault to u.... its as if i'm saying all u bad... no be... not ur fault... i'm bad.... i'm wrong... but u also must understand, not i'm saying u are wrong again k? listen properly... read this properly... i dint push.. i dint blame u.... i'm just saying that ur temper also need to control... ur sms also need to use different words to show ur tone k? cause ur tone and ur words... gives me an impression that i'm always that forgetful... gave me the impression i'm always not having the heart to rmb ur time table... i'm sorry... i know i dint remember... but u say... "u dint rmb also, told u so many times" =.= that makes me like as if my heart is sumwhere else... at sum1 else... no be... its always and has been with u... neva change...

hmm... i dun know what that means also lo... its i'm blur? just now like u smsed me... say i blur? then i started the so called "pushing"? be.. calmly read this again... its not my fault i angry also... me dint rmb... i know its my fault for my temper... but ur smses has no tone de... if u read like this... i tot u like angrily scolding lo... summore show me faces... ok.... i know when i write like this... u also will say... i'm a pusher blaming u... then say next time u wont write the way i dun like.... u wont write this way that i dun like... u change just for this misunderstanding.... NO NO... i dun mean like this... i dun mean next time all also must be smiley faces for me... no... i just mean that if can... be urself... if can also... just say only... if i forget.. just say i forget... i forgetful... enuf lo... told u many times?? u know i forgetful... if say like this... so it makes as if i no heart de lo... i'm just asking for u to say things very calmly manner... same goes for me... no more arguing from now on k? dun listen to the phone and straight away kept blaming urself...

be... one more thing... i dun like u kept blaming urself k? i dun like u kept saying its ur fault... then in the end.. it sounds like i kept blaming... being a pusher to u.... please be... when its my fault... i calmly understand where is my fault... (i'll try to control my temper.. and really calm to understand..) but same for u... when its ur fault... then must listen to me k? anything u dun like... tell me straight away... like i dun like u and that girl together chit chat... give me time... i'll follow... rmb yuki and samantha? i did also... u say u dun like.. i din chat with them d ma... its because i treat them frens.. and i need time to so called "un-friend" them... hmm..

i'm sorry... i need to control my temper... i also need to control my sayings to u too... i just wish u everyday can sms me what u do, doing, and done... and i'll do the same... be, i rmb v have explained why i so forgetful... i rmb i told u... my head could only store 30%, if more... others i write down... i hope i could have a timetable like ur sis to tiong... i adi created my timetable for u.... to rmb all ur timings, i really need one... if i forget... and so if i dun rmb... u scold me la... ok?? then its my bad d... its not i no heart and say like u bad, u dint get me a timetable.. i shud have be more caring... get to know all ur timings.. but i really couldnt store it... when i store it... i cant rmb what i'm doing... i need to use my brain for my work and memory to rmb my work... i'm sorry.. i promise u that i will always have the timetable with me and rmb the timing to sms u... ok?

be... this time.. my fault is i dun rmb... my fault is also i sms u late... after lunch dint sms u... but misunderstandings is not caused by one person only....
u also have a little responsibility and fault to consider....
its ur tone to say people...not saying until people like no heart... its u awake, really dint sms me also lo... i rmb u always awake, dun care i doin wat.. u will sms me... @.@ i'm awake... hmm.. but today, u dint lo... then i dint know u can wake up for teaching.. because i dint know u woke up... then our anger came out again...

from small misunderstandings, to wrong timing... to bad temper of me... i'm sorry again... i know my faults... but i hope that in ur mind, next time... i'm no pusher and i hope u know there is sum of ur faults too... be... rmb... i dun push blames to people and say i'm right... i dun push all kinds of blames to u and just say u r wrong... and i'm right...

be, i dun wish to make an impression to u that i'm a pusher... its because we are singles.. and i made the decision last time... and now i wish i could make the decision so that we could be back together... u want us to stay as frens... rite? i know the decision couldnt change... i know the decision once made, couldnt be altered... doesnt it sound like a rule to u? rules cant change or altered once done?
be... all i'm asking is the 3rd chance... 1st is because of my dad's case.. i dint wan it to happen also... no money is always an issue... because i need the money just to see u... (its not i mean that everytime i c u.. must use money k?, its sumthing like this..)if i no money.. hw to drive and meet u? meet u dun need money... but my car does... no car.. i also cant c u... rmb that situation? why must i so called "ditched" u? or known to break up? if i dun see u... dun chat with u... it'll end up like this... kept arguing... that moment.. i din want us to be like this...
2nd... is because that u think i got affairs and many misunderstandings on ur b'day too.. there isnt a point for me to say d... u think i got affairs.. means u dun trust me... (be... i know u trust me.. its not i want to bring this issue again... but just assume the other way around... i ask why is there so many brothers of urs? and then many gorgor stuff and talkings... i dun like hw they sounded too..... it sounds like u having affairs also lo... rite? no ma... its because i trust u... thats why i dun bring this matter to u...) thats why i kept saying u dun trust me... i know taking pics with girls.. is my fault.. but "baby", "miss me a?" and others is not i flirt or anything to get that kind of message in fb... but think once more... its us not being into the relationship, we are singles, and u deleted all pics of me and u... there isnt any connection between us... so people write like that, there is no wrong... next, its u dun trust me... u could have asked why she call u baby or missed me? not start shooting me by "omg... hw i can take this... hw i can tahan this thingy..? baby???" no be... listen and read carefully... i dint know anything lo.. i know u will be pissed and angry... but for myside... i really dun know a single thingy of that message that is sent to my fb profile also... this is why i kept saying u dun trust me... and kept giving u the impression i'm a pusher lo... kept blaming u... hmmm... i know its my fault to take pics vf her... but it was way be4 the baby was said... i was going to ask u... hw is her looks.. then delete d... from the working pics... u could c that i have no credit at 1st.. then left a bit of battery... then take pics.. one place after another... take one pic.. then work.. then waiting... then take.. then work.. i know its my fault.. i shud have find a phone to contact u but not taking pics.. my fault... i know i started this bad impression to u... dint do as a bf shud do... but what i think is u shudnt kept shooting... people also dun know... hmm.. neva mind la... (my sayings for this incident is long adi... dun wanna kept it so long.. its past d... and its long because this is the case of us for the 2nd time...)

my meaning of there is no wrong or right is because v both also got wrong... i'm wrong... and u are wrong too... usually its like this, both wrong only misunderstandings happens...

again... lastly... i'm no pusher and i'm sorry.... hope u understand what am i going through... and i'll try to change k? write in here if u want to reply on what was ur situation... i'll understand and try to adapt.. (but mostly i adi know d... because u have said to me and i've stated on top...)and i really really hope... u could be my gf once more.. i dun want all kinds of u like and i like d... i also dun like to type that d... i'm sorry i started typing it first k? (dun care who type 1st, but its my fault too k? to fire bek like that... hmmm, sorry..) i just really wish the days of us being together happens again... i really really hope u could be my gf once more...hmmm... i dun wan to wait no more... the more v wait.. the more v hate each other... why? its because of all these misunderstandings... be, be my gf once more k? leave this all behind k? we start a new one... forget the pain.. rmb the experiences.. dun commit again mai can lo? i'll try de... give me one more chance can ma?