nw again is my fault?

why is always my fault?

did i do anything wrong? huh?

why is me always the fault? =(

do u know.. i have used many calm messages to sms u...
to tell u what i did... to tell u where am i...
to notify u who am i with... to let u know what i've finished...
to tell u MYSELF to U...

now i'm not angry, its just my opinion what has happened just now... i hope when u read this.. dun angry or anything bad k? calmly read this... anything i say affected u... i'm sorry... but this blog, also have sumthing about u de... i'll go straight to the point...

and before everything happens... u have slept 5 mins d, then started teaching...
i msg u hw many a? 3 msg? u just think one sorry will do?
u might think that i'm very selfish and small gas person... go ahead... i'm that small gas... why do u think i'm like that? u said i've changed... yes.. i have... because of matters that u have trained me... oh ya... i'm a pusher now rite? kept blaming u... be... think of it la... =( am i that small gas person?? i dint lo... i dint say why u dint sms me... why leh? today is sat, ur most busy day... why is there for me to angry leh? i think of ur day too...

think back la.. i just miss ur msgs by two only... or i told u i was working, then i cant sms u... then u'll be very upset la... angry la.... omg... what has happened??last time u will be very calm.. tell u that i'm bz... then u'll wait... after i fin bz... then i tired and also sms u la...same thing also ma... just put memories aside... is it i did sumthing bad be4 that? after that? i think its after that... the pics and everything rite? hmm....

just now u dint reply me the 3rd msg... did i felt angry? did i simply sms u? every 2nd message of urs if i have the time, only if i'm sleeping... i also would have got it.. and message u back... after 3rd message, one sorry and u think its ok adi? but did i say anything of it? did i mention anything to scold u bek? no lo... if u think bek.. u werent like that to me be4 lo... be.. i start to think... its not me which changed... its u... and u wan to say i'm a pusher again... so be it.. i also think that u are the one which changed... because really last time, u werent like this... i und u r tired and busy today... one sorry, i'll take it.. i know u are very tired of this too...

u can say i like to count this and count that... why? what makes me count? when i do bek... u angry vf me... i dint payback anything also... my point was so simple.. why couldnt u understand? i just call u to end ur day by ur bath, make nice nice... then have time for me... got wrong??

u werent like that... i know u will tahan and everything... but at least u tell me what were u doing... u would not reply me short message and say u was taking sumthing... sumthing? u last time would have explained it... if not, u must be bz... thats what i did bek for u... i really tot u were rushing or doing sumthing...
dont i know u are tired? dont i know u are very very tired and also sms me?? i know lo.. why? u slept for 5mins.. then u teach? and then from that very moment... u teaching ma rite? hw to rest?

but if u think properly, why did i ask u to bath? ur internal body is very hot de... cool down ma... why dun u cool down 1st? and then... i mai ask u to bath 1st lo... what did i do wrong? i call u to bath also seems i dun wan to sms u??

if i dun wan to sms u, why shud i kept replying? i can just put my phone there ma...
i was so affected after ur teaching... u say u cant go to the dinner with me...
i dun know whether u got defend for me or not... and i was sure u did... but u shud know that the robber case was not my fault also... she wanna think like this about me? then i think u shud have changed her mind ma... rite? then my impression to ur mum.. bad d lo? but nw after this blog thingy... my impression to u.. would also be no better... but for ur information, i did defend u a lot from my mum... she started to see good in u... but then... nw we like this... =(

think bout this la be... think la...
if i dun wanna sms u... why must i kept smsing u??
oh ya... rmb this... while i was writing this... u smsed me..
u say do what i requested... fin all ur work... yup i did say it...
but did u read properly?? did u every try to read what i say? u kept saying its me who change... but this time, its u....
u are always angry to me... a little bit thing, u angry... little bit more... u wanna scold... what is happening to u?? i adi say things properly lo... i adi call u do things 1st lo.. not free time only sms me lo.... if u have free time, i adi happy, cause i could call u go out anytime...

oh ya... and u say u were never doing 1 thing at a time... u say u must "multitask" everytime... i say be4 i'll understand... but nw is u dun understand from me lo....
i dint reject u... i dint say "I DUN WANT TO MESSAGE MYSELF TO U LO"

thats what u said... not me... i wasnt the one who rejected to sms u...it was u... its not i dun wan to sms... its not i kept calling u to do things... bathing hw u sms me?? hmm? call u bath and kau tim 1st also got wrong? i really dun wan the "wait a" then sorry... i bathing...
all of this, to u might be i'm pushing blames to u... but i can tell u, its not... its just my opinion...

i'm not angry of what u did... but i hope... when i call u to do sumthing u dun like or dun wan, ask me why did i do so... why are u pushing me... ,tell me what's ur reason also... calmly tell me.... ok?? i also wanna know ur reasons too... this way, i'll also do it to u as well... i will also ask u de...

like just now lo... if i call u to bath and kau tim urself... so that u could sms me ma.... but if u tired... but u still wan to sms me... ask me why lo... why call u to bath ma.... same thing goes for me... if u call me to do my work 1st, but i'm kinda free wor... i'll ask u why rite?? =)

all i think now is our communication is very bad... everything and everytime also quarrel... but, in person, i dun see what we quarrel lo... do u quarrel or angry with me when u c me? except for the kisses and hugs la... other than that, are u angry on me?? but for me.. i'm not.. i dun quarrel with u in the car or breaky ma.. right? why are we quarrelling then? nvm for all this la... this is what i need to change.. and u need to see also.... we are actually not having any problems... if we had, we would be quarreling in front of each other when we meet up lo... or is it u are just having patience in me? tell me... if u really dun wan... then i reduce the level until no more...

from now on... this is i say de... we dun quarrel k? i'll try to reduce the misunderstandings k?? i wanna try for us to stop quarrel... i hope u read this, dun get angry... save this relationship with me also k? i'll do my part... i know u have done urs... but let me do my part... hmmm...