dear

dear.. u see it seems dat we've been so busy vf our stuff till dis blog is ignored..

dear.. i jz drop by to tell u n to update dis blog..

although i noe we hv sum times dat is so hard for us.. cant see each other, sum small quarrels.. bt den it always make me feel loved when i noe dear's there still hanging on for me for us..dear.. i love u..i hope we can hold on still.. k? cz dear.. i cant wait for de day dat we both can finally be recognized as a couple from both of our families..

dear.. i love u.. so much.. kisskiss me when see dis k? hehe

love,
ur bebe

Dear..my Dear..

Dear,its Ok dat its short..i dun mind..cx Dear took d heart2write for me..its really gud d Dear,i c d effort..
Dear a,i left a msg in fb msg for u k?read ther Ya cx jx nw I cant access 2d blog so I wrote on fb 4u..my Dear..jx letting u d details 4 tmr k?v adi packed up 77 88 ..tmr nomin may wakey at 7 2 do last minute packing,den we'll check out at 10.30,go take a train2 birmingham airport,den only breaky ther b4 v board d plane..
My Dear..tmr u'll start work when i'm in d plane,bt I'll try sms u Ok?Dear a..try eat n conc vf ur work,hse matter go home only settle..
Dear,thurs can c u d..i'm gona Hug n kiss u..miss u so much my Dear..n my poor Dear nid2go through so much prob =( i'm comin2 u Dear..i love u my Dear..kisskiss u..

bebe.... although this is short...

bebe...
this will be short...
me went swimming...
then i'm here at castle...
but after swimming...
i really feel i'm totally exhausted...
very tired...
then slept in the car of jason at behind the seat lo...
geng o?
hmm...
got wasted in the car...
lately dint sleep well...
then swim awhile...
cool down in the water...
then i ate...
very warm my whole body...
then very nice to sleep... hmm...

bebe... miss u so much... 3 more hours...
then u'll end ur seminar...
i miss u so much...
come bek quickly...
:(
me really dun enjoy this two weekends...
summore my bad days has arrived... :(
tml my parents and my bro will check the condominium...
see ok or not...
but mum say terrance house better...
cause the house a bit bigger...
can dun need to throw many things..
cause my house also many things...
so got to think of ways to put them...
but furniture... nearly all the big ones...
need to be sold...
i dint really sat on the sofa more than 10 times...
hmmm..:(

tml morning... will take my time to sleep on it...
hmm...
but really after so long...
dint really sit or slept on it...
:(

bebe... come bek ok? hmm...
i'm waiting so long for u...:(

bebe... my emo-ness...

bebe....
my emo-ness, really relates to my house...
my dad... and my mom...

hmmm... but how is ur part there?
nice and enjoying? good good...
hmmm...

my side..
here is very bad for me... very cham for me...
very tired of this...
very pain of the result...
and also...
me very sad right now...
so many things happen in a day...
hmmm...
even now... my phone suddenly cant work...
luckily its not the iphone...
its my sony phone...
my buttons of the lower end...
cant work...
press cant function at all...

bebe...
my problems...
mum adi went for body check up...
then her lower part...
checked twice by two different doctors...
(thats what i heard from her...)
then got infection of having cancer genes...
so got to do operation faster...
if not... sked the infection is known to be cancer...
then that time.. hard to kau tim..
now... need money for operation is still ok....

then now... my house no longer is ours...
cause last time my dad borrow sum money from a lending company...
knew from sum idiot last time when we needed the money...
it was long story...
then my dad now dun have the money to pay them bek...
not even for the small percentage of interest... its like a credit card like that only...
cause its 1++% only...
and also... the house is on the loan of the bank ma...
previously de la...
but now..
everything cant be settled...
the lending company went and settled the loan from the bank...
and then now causing us to suffer....
we got to surrender the house to them first....

dad finding ways to secure the house...
but then..
he started to think that if sumone could help to buy the house...
then only we repay him bek...
but come to think of it...
who would do such thing...
then what we need to do...
is to surrender the house...
and i think...
according to the law...
we must leave the house within 10days...
but then...
i dun know where to look for a house....

cause mum like that...
then sis got kindergarden...
house no car...
me and dad got to take turns and fetch my sis...
hmm...
then we got to rent sumwhere nearby..
then dun know where is ok for us...
sum Terrance house...
cause house so many things to move...
there are so many things to decide...
all the paper work and stuff...

summore mum like that...
having issues of her health...
money is again the issue...

then... how is the house??
how is it going to be settled?
what can we do?
what is to be done?

then apart from there...
the house that we going to rent...
how much is the rental.??
where to rent??
how is the terms like??


so many thinking and things need to be settled...
then the bills?? how leh? how are we to do things??
then do we cut all the bills?
the paperwork is loads.... :( :(

how bebe...??
how?? how?? hmmm..
i'm going crazy here...
i dun know what i could do anymore...
i cant make a living at all..
my money also limited...
dun know what can be done....

dad also not doing well lately...
but at least...
got cars can sell a bit...
but how long does it last?
how long these suffering need to last?
then how long more?

all these questions i also dun know how to answer...
ytd till now...
i really dint sleep...
its all in my mind...
then today de exam...
i did also so so only...
dint think for awhile...
study like mad...
only barely know how to answer a little...
i really got no mood for all things now...
i really dun know what to do...
many things running up and down...

i felt like dying...
i felt like just die and be like that...
i dun feel like anything...
why is the world so unfair??
why?
i dun understand...

i tot of taking up a loan...
then buy a house instead of renting one...
but then...
i dun have the assets to do so...
what i work also...
cant make up for the money to even buy a house....
so how to get the money??

all also related to money...
then money is going out so fast...
relatives also help a little only...
they cant even do anything...
there is no help from anyone...

relatives know we cant pay up...
then dun wan to care of us much also...
summore dad's company in indonesia cant sell also...
that stupid bitch.... broke her leg...
in hospital...
got money to mend the leg...
means summore got money lo...

took up two years....
and then.. now...
nothing at all...
say this and that...
but then.. all nonsense...
who is to buy now???
when they can pay up?? i really dun know....
i really dun know what to do...

all the things stuck and everyone demanding money from us...
especially my dad....
my parents cant really sleep because like that...
dun know how tahan...
dun know how long to tahan...
and dun know how long my parents can tahan...:(:(

bebe... :( understand how i feel now??
understand why now ma??
hmmm.. i cant take it no more....
why all also happening like this de?? :(

bebe... my emo-ness...

Good morning my Dear =)

Dear,wat happen last nite?pls tel me k?tel me in detail Ok?i hope is nothing to do vf u,or ur family.. =( i'm kinda worried here Dear..
Dear.here nw is 11.15pm adi..i jx fin watchin d musical,i noe I said mayb I cant blog for u,bt I'll jx try my best here Dear b4 I drop dead oo..
Dear,eat so many pizza oo?kip eating eating n eating?Aaawww..Dear.s long wat goes in gt cum out..den is consider Ok d oo~butt painpain d?Oh cx u naughty,nv eat fruits oo..mayb u eat more papaya,den wil cum out easier 4u Dear,can cleanse s well hehe..
Dear,me here food everyday is jx sandwhich,morning sandwich,lunch sandwich, =.= dinner mum cooked rice n curry,den fried egg n ham..yummy!hehe Dear a Dear,dun say silly things lo..fat or thin.i stil love u..n love my water bed rmb?hehe kisskiss
Dear a,my hp credit left rm20 only,cant sms Dear d,cx gota msg mum oso =.= den Dear,tmr onwards,mum say dinner wil eat out..cx wan2 try d food ther,n duno her..so Dear,u MUST guaiguai go home n sleep d k?
Dear,i noe dis is nt long..bt den,my eyes r really closing..Dear.i wan2 climb into ur arms n sleep lo.gudnite my Dear..kiss u at d cheek..i love u~

bebe... me reach the castle

bebebebe.....
kiss kiss...
me reach castle lo... but me...
alone here..
play iphone until hands crack...
hahaha.. kinda tired...
hmmm...
if only u here...
so i'll be bz kissing u only...
hmmm...

just now...
mum called...
why dun come bek leh?
mum cooked dinner...
tot me will go home...
my tummy adi full with the pizza just now...
me ate dominoes...
its haiwaiian chicken...
got chilli tuna....
and seafood....
me also got the coupons...
but must delivery de...
valid until 31 August...
so u also can use...
:)
then i give u the codes...
then u use k? hehehe...
cause these coupons..
i stole it de...
then put in my wallet...
:)

then when i go bek office after my last 15mins...
me work work work... and...
got one more small pizza...
all also full of pizza adi...
then me took...
and had it for dinner...
so 3 days straight...
dint use much money...
just the parking money...
rm18.60... for 3 days...
geng hor?
me adi very full...
geng mou? then erik's team...
also i think they cant tahan of our team de 20 small pizzas...
the boss over that side...
go and order pizza hut...
gila hor? pizza fever today...
so the lvl8 floor... half of the team.. all also pizza fever...
makan makan makan....
until the keyboards also oily...
then they have a piece of alcohol swaps...
so clean wounds when we st johns? rmb ma?
they take it and clean the keyboards...=.= sot sot ma?
haiz... HSBC a lot of money...
sponsor those de... geng o? hehehe...
then now...
me full full...
mum summore call me eat...
wa liao...
not only u come bek become fat...
me here in malaysia also getting fatter...
then one of my collegue...
came bek from england training...
nice hor?
we went to the same training on the first day de...
if he dun call me..
me also dun know who is he...
he indian lai de..
me name also dun know...

this means that most of the people in that floor...
adi know me as "Jack" or "Jack Sparrow" =.=''
sot ma? hmmm...
then he say me first day till now...
last time skinny...
now so fat.... wa liao...
he say me fat o...:(
sei mou...
later my bebe dun wan me....:(
too fat....
:(:(:(

bebe.... kiss kiss...
wan me k? dun leave me because me fat ok?
:(:(:(
ok la.. me wait u end ur day k? and until jason they all come k? kiss kiss... miss you... muacks!