Happy MoonCake Festival 2012-09-29 to everyone!!

Today, it was supposed to be a good day to celebrate this wonderful event. Many to do, it should have mooncakes to eat with calming tea beside it.. spending time vf loved ones while enjoying the night with the bright round moon with its light gaze upon. But in the end, it turns out to be just a dinner with friends and sitting here updating this.. I am grateful for my frens to spend time vf me when i am alone. But i wish was another thing. Nothing to be said or can be said pr can be done. The presents i came across looking at my pics.. getting there where it is now at... took my heart and effort just to make it there.. (some items which i have bought) its not the sympathy i’m asking. It’s just grateful of what my efforts has paid for. I just want myself to know how much effort i have made just for these items. The first items was the keychains.. went to bukit tinggi and then took a long time to bargain to get it. It was supposed to be bought by a couple. They wanted it to be in a couple keychain. Asked them politely to let me have it. In the end, it is now in the hands of my loved one. Next was the keychain of a boat. That boat, took bout RM40 just to get that. Spinned 10 rounds just to get the boat. Others was donated to charity other than putting it at my house to become scrap. There was so much hope i put in. But the luck was there for me. The boat eventually came out from the machine. I was so grateful for that. Walked so long.. after work to there then to the machine. Changed each time until the owner there is adi pissed of. Because i was like changing the tokens everytime like a small kid. Tired but childish of me. But when i mentioned to him it was for my loved one cause she loved the boat so much. He wanted to open the machine to get me that. But Eventually he looked at me, smiled and said “you loved this person so much, cherish it more.” Other items was the snacks I have bought from the trip i went, Sg. Lembing. Thinking of the person always and remembers what she liked most. That dint bring much effort. Just that the memory of it. Just hope that she wont finished it in a day and caused her to get sick. The most memorable incident was the mooncakes that I have delivered to my loved one. It took most of my effort just to get them. Which now, it couldn’t be found in the market except it was its either in people’s house or in people’s stomach. How I have got it. What I have been through. Its not the sympathy which I wanted. I wanted the person to be happy. Since i dun have the car to travel. The only i have, was my bare legs. It was a day, Thursday night. After my work.. I walked back from my working place. Knowing next weekend was the mooncake festival. When walked, accidentally slipped and fell. Sprained my legs which was nothing it seems. After 3 steps, hurts like mad. But to me, i must get it before it was sold out. Walked from Bangsar to station, then made it to times square, got the chance to find the mooncakes, but they have it sold out. With my sprained leg, pain like mad. Sat a cab and raced to leisure mall. Which i have my legs rested awhile. Then walked up and down, for the mooncake. Then finally they were selling it. As my pocket left only the money to get the mooncakes only and there was nothing left for the cab, i had to walked home from leisure mall back to my house with my painful leg. I have walked bout 3hours. Knowing that the mooncakes must be placed in the fridge to keep it cool so that the taste won’t be bad. I had to walk with my painful sprained leg back home. Until home, placed the mooncakes into the fridge and went to bath before having my legs soak in water and medication. And then i have to be sent to a tit dar. Very pain until i barely could move. My parents seems so worried cause i couldn’t move much. Brought me to a tit dar nearby, the doctor there was shocked. That my leg sprained was ok adi. Luckily nothing much was needed to do. The doctor said my legs were over tired and the way i walked, have placed back the bone. So lucky of me. but it was an effort given to get those. Went up and down just for it. The next day i had to tell my loved one. But i was blamed for not listening. The pain was so much to bear. Did so much but in the end, i got this. It makes me not to tell more cause the more i tell, it wasn’t going to help anything. I just hope she could enjoy it because she was loving yam so much and the efforts i’ve paid, i think it was worth it just for her. Just a smile would be the medicine for me. Today, 28/09/12, went out to find a perfect card to pass to her. Cant find any mooncake cards but then got scolded by mum for endless efforts for nothing. I barely listened to her. Scoldings and ngam ngam ngam. But I know my mum was worried. Calmed her down as well. but the card was a thing to be given. Nothing much. Went home, rushed to write and tried to beautify the card. But then, there wasn’t any materials for me to do. So, in the end, was only black ink. Hmm.. i know i din do much on the card. Sorry. As the way to bring it across, i know that my loved one, was so sick of the flu. I purposely went to the pharmacy to get her the medication. Asking so much questions until i have totally forgotten the conversation. But hope for the best that my loved one would get cured soon. Then i made my way to her house. Reached her house and passed to her, my whole body was so weak and tired. Din really slept, cause the dreams have been in my mind rolling.. and the whole day preparing. Reached her house, barely stand. Bended my body so that my legs wont have so much pressure. Sat on her couch, barely could move. But less than 5mins, i was ordered to leave cause she had the whole day teaching and dancing. My legs could barely move. Walked out of the house and hope that i could have a smile or anything. But i know she is sick and tired. Din hope much. I just wish to held her hands. That will do. But... hmm.. declined. Nvm. I walked to my car. Sat for 5mins only moved. Went home and rest my legs, alone in the dark, until i have my dinner with my friends and ended up here updating this blog of mine. What a journey of getting the items. I am not asking for sympathy. Just wish that my efforts paid well. but i dint even got a smile. Just thank you. I just wish i could have a picture of her smiling that i have went through so much. Hmm.. nothing i can do. Its like meant to be done. The more i said, the more i explain or express, it makes like nothing. And would caused trouble if i had said more. This is the pain i get for the effort? Hmm.. nvm.. it has already ended. I just din know what i could do more.