so heart sick

i really hate dis feeling right now.. i rather dun wan to feel.. at all...!

1st time ever writing blog n is 2 express my sadness.. n my angryness.. n my jealousness.. all in one~ ahh!! i feel so bad!!

i jz hate it when u type a 'muacks' 4 dat gal.. who ever izit.. joking or not~ change it if its me.. giving a kiss 2 another guy wat wil u feel?? i jz cant stand it!! i noe i get de real one.. but i din noe u really wil do it in msn.. jz so easily flirting vf another gal! argh!!

i jz dun und.. izit dat she has de onli guy friend which is u?? i tot she has de whole college of friends?? n den?? must call u?? n u can jz immediately go fetch her?? i hate de scene dat she is sitting beside u in de car.. i dun even wana look... she is a nice friend 2 me.. but sorry i cant take it!!

i tot she go ur hse on9?? her hse cant on 9 ma?? u told her wat ever u told me.. bout ur best friend n gf.. she seems to noe everything more den me~.. i dun like it!! y izit she is so special?? i really hate everything!! argh i duno wat else 2 express.. n u nicely brought her into ur room.. hello.. i oso scare of ur mum.. when ur mum is in de hall.. i m also there downstairs.. y izit u cant jz leave her downstairs.. u noe it dat i mind.. n yet u do it.. u had a choice.. it is nt dat u dun hv a choice.. u chose a choice dat knowingly dat i'll mind most..

n have her til now.. have ur dinner 2gete?? o yea.. u also jealous i had 4 hrs vf him la.. den wat bout u??hw long r u vf her?? u count n c..say u not feeling well n yet went out vf de gang.. bawa her sekali.. thank you so much 4 making me feel like dis.. I HATE IT SO MUCH!! I DUN LIKE DIS FEELING!! ARGH!!